Farmers Market!

Today I went to the Farmer's Market! The local Amish community was there! And I bought at least one of everything they had! I love the Amish! :) I also bought local eggs and meat, hormone and anti-biotic free! I will let you know how the meals go! And as soon as I can get a camera I will take some pics of my loot!

Oh the weather........

So today it is raining and we are enjoying a sporadic, but LOUD Thunder and Lightning storm! I don't mind the rain to much, however the thunder and lightning freak me out a bit... and of course I am always afraid of the tornado that *could* pop up at any moment!

I am trying to think of things that could keep us busy inside, but I am not getting any ideas that would take us further from the couch and watching movies :) And sneaking in a few random naps during said movie session. The girls are afraid of Thunder and Lightning. I don't blame them! It is loud and here it shakes our house!

So I have had an idea for a while and soon I will begin to compile it and either blog it or put it in a book. And I hesitate to say what it is, in case the extremely off chance a lot of people start reading here lol, and someone steals my idea. It is an idea my husband and I have been talking about for a while now and it is quite hilarious! I'll keep you posted!

Life....

So it has been A LONG time since I have "blogged". However in all fairness, my life has been a huge mess of excitement and then sadness.

So a few days after my last blog we discovered I was pregnant again. We were nervous as we have a history of bad pregnancies, loss due to genetic abnormalities, etc. So very rough all around. Things had been going well until 2 weeks ago. I went in for my routine appt/ultrasound for 20 weeks and the doctor could find no heartbeat. It was devastating. For many reasons. One, it was a boy, we have all girls and we had a son who passed away due to birth defects and being born to early. So we were excited to have a boy. So they induced my labor and our son was born on Beltane at 4 am. So just over two weeks ago now. We are handling it well for a few reasons, this isn't our first loss like this, we still have 3 beautifully healthy girls in our lives and we have each other.

Don't get me wrong, we still have our daily sadness and struggles. However I know that everything will be ok. We will be ok. As time goes on we will feel less and less devastated.

On a happier note, I started school a few months ago and I just finished up my first term as a college student, managing a crazy life (lol), mother of 3, married to a man in the Army, and got great grades!

I pretty much stopped all my pagan involvement for a while and traveled back into Atheism, BUT, I must put a disclaimer on that and say that just because I do not believe there is a god, doesn't mean I don't feel connected, spiritually and energy wise to others in this world and to this world in general. :) I love paganism and find it fulfilling on my own terms of spirituality :) So I am happy and now that my life has settled down I am starting to get back into my own personal Pagan practice.

Thats my update friends. I have missed you and I have been disconnected. Hope you all are well. Let me know! <3